Chapter 3 VI

I thought I was a horrible person, but she did the same exact thing to each other. We promised each other that we would never do that, nothing we can do now. The Party is overall okay after my experience. My memories are almost gone, I cannot recall anything especially a recent dream. Everything will be okay if Big Brother is there for all of us.

Chapter 3 V

Today was the worst that it could possibly be. O'Brian turned a 180 on me, he knew my fear, rats. I was put in a box of starving dirty rats. He planned this out all along it seemed, he knew if he put me in that kind of situation that something would happen. Under pressure, I gave up Julia. I was selfish, yet I found out she gave me up instantly like I was nothing to her.

Chapter 3 IV

They keep trying to change my opinion about the Party. It will never happen because I am one of the few that know about them. The way they change history and lie about what has happened in the past, yet what frustrates me more is that the future lies in the proles. Yet they will not be able to if they are continually brainwashed. Nothing will happen as long as I am in here, locked up.

Chapter 3 III

Party is seeking more power by controlling every move of us. He knows everything that has been going on, which frustrates me more than anything. The thought of being without Julia kills me. Or with the thought of him knowing everything that has happened through the past few weeks, months or years. I feel betrayed yet I do not want to say anything for the fear that they might do anything to Julia.

Chapter 3 II

Worst part about trust, is having it broken. O'Brian, my idol, the person that I have looked up to for taking a stand has been directing everything. Now everything made sense, we have been watched the whole time through the affair. He knows how to control everything like when I die or how I am tortured. All of this just shows the corruption of the Party.

Chapter 3 I

Julia woke up to singing, what could be better? She is my love, yet now we cannot be together because we were caught. The people who I trust with literally my life. Mr. Charrington is part of the thought police. We cannot be together. The whole time the telescreen was behind a picture. We both are done for, so called for love forever with her.

Chapter 2 X

Julia and I were caught today by the thought police. . The window and my paper weight broke on the invasion. I was shocked when I saw Mr. Charrington walk through the window. I'm scared I am going to be caught writing this. Every move I make, they are watching me.